Title: The Beginning Or The End?

Author: Kristina Q.

Disclaimer: No one belongs to me. This world is so unfair!

Distribution: Ask me. I am very nice.

Spoiler: AU. I guess.

Warning: A bit profanity and male/male graphic sexual situations.

Rating: NC-17.

Notes: This is the 9th chapter of my Cautious Affections series.

Sniffling, Jesse wiped his eyes angrily. How could Billy be so cruel? Why did he react that way? He didn’t own Jesse! He never had! Or had he? It didn’t matter! It had nothing to do with their relationship! This was about Chris and Jesse. After so long time then Billy should be able to let Jesse love someone else. Especially after he dumped him for someone else!

It made no sense to Jesse. Why did he get so pissed off. If you didn’t know better then you’d think Billy was still his boyfriend! Maybe… did Billy still have feelings for Jesse? No, it couldn’t be possible! He had never cared for him. He had only wanted to fuck him whenever he wanted to!

Billy was a mystery. Maybe Hunter could talk to him and make him tell what his problems are. Hunter had promised to call him later and tell about Billy.

Another tear trickled from his reddened eye. Why was Billy always such an asshole!

Jesse was so deep in his own thoughts he didn’t even hear the door to his hotelroom open. Didn’t hear someone enter. Didn’t hear the door closing again.

“Bastard…” Jesse muttered to himself.

“What’s wrong?”

Jesse nearly jumped off the bed in shock. He didn’t know someone was there. He quickly got up, wiping his eyes before facing Chris. “Nothing… nothing’s wrong…” Jesse tried to sound at least a bit happy. He didn’t succeed. His voice and his reddened eyes gave it all away.

“Jess, what happened?” Chris carefully asked, stepping closer and wrapping his arms around the older man, trying to comfort him. Jesse willingly let himself be embraced. He needed it.

Running his hand through the older man’s braids, Chris was trying to soothe him. “Please tell me what’s wrong…” Chris gently whispered against Jesse’s neck. “It’s just… Billy.” Jesse muttered, “I don’t understand him…”

Chris tightened his embrace and placed a soft kiss on his forehead before speaking, “Just let him be. He’s just jealous, that’s all. Besides then it’s none of his business who you’re with… right?” Chris playfully rubbed his nose against Jesse’s causing him to smile a bit.

“I guess you’re right, babe.” Jesse’s smile widened before he kissed him quickly. “Of course I am… now come here…” Chris whispered, his lips brushing a curve of Jesse’s neck before he backed towards the bed and sat down, waiting. His eyes were locked on Jesse’s, sending him an inviting gaze.

“Let me make you feel better…”

Jesse grinned slyly before he came to Chris, but not as he had expected. Instead he went around him and sat on the bed behind Chris, brushing his hair away from his neck before placing soft kisses there. Chris craned his head back and Jesse instantly captured his lips in a deep kiss, feeling his fingers gently caressing his tense muscles on his back.

They broke the kiss, Chris gasping slightly as he felt his tight shirt being pulled off, warm fingers constantly stroking every inch of flesh on his chest and stomach. Chris purred softly, leaning back against Jesse’s heaving chest. “I thought I was gonna make you feel better…?” he lightly laughed.

“I feel much better already…” Jesse said between kisses. He trailed his lips along his neck, his fingers finally reaching the waistline of Chris skintight leather pants. For a long moment he played with the button before finally unbuttoning, reaching a hand inside to stroke him through his underwear.

Chris gasped, allowing Jesse to tease him a bit longer before he decided to turn around. He kissed Jesse lightly and wriggled out of his pants and then taking off his underwear. Jesse gazed hungrily at him, licking his lips.

Crawling onto the mattress, Chris began to tug at Jesse’s t-shirt until he finally pulled it over his head, then began fingering the zipper of his jeans, drawing a low moan from Jesse’s slightly parted lips. The confines around his hips loosened and Chris leaned closer, whispering in his ear, “Lie down…”

Jesse didn’t hesitate to obey and he was soon lying on his back, allowing Chris to yank off his jeans and boxers, freeing his already hardened manhood.

Seconds later, Chris laid down next to Jesse, staring into his sparkling eyes. He stroked Jesse’s cheekbone with his thumb. “I love you… I don’t care what anyone thinks about you… You’re wonderful” he caused Jesse to smile, his cheeks slightly blushing.

“I love you too.” Jesse didn’t speak more than those words, but the look in his eyes told Chris so much more than words could ever tell him.

They kissed, their tongues playing against one another’s. A harsh moan escaped Chris when he felt warm fingers curl around his hard cock, carefully beginning to move along his swelled flesh. He gasped as he moved his hand to caress Jesse’s manhood.

Jesse’s hips jerked towards his lover, a soft moan slipping from his lips. Chris shifted closer, gently squeezing as he did so. They settled on a rhythm, soft moans and little gasps escaping both men as they stared into each other’s eyes.

They continued their pace, their bodies beginning to glisten by sweat. Chris closed his eyes tightly for s brief moment, the touch of Jesse’s free hand causing him to open his eyes again. Jesse rubbed a fingertip over Chris lower lip.

He moaned loudly when Chris began licking on his finger before sucking it in between his moist lips. He swirled his tongue over the digit, feeling Jesse’s hips jerk hard against his hand. He increased the pace of his stroking as he sensed that Jesse was about to spill.

Not many seconds later Jesse sobbed harshly, his entire body tensing as he released his seed in Chris’ waiting palm. He shuddered and panted as the aftershocks lingered on for a brief moment before he rolled onto his back.

Chris reached to lightly touch Jesse’s hand which was still wrapped around his cock, gently guiding the fingers along the flesh. Jesse returned to his side and once again began to move his fingers.

With his free hand, he began pressing gently on Chris’ chest, silently asking him to lie on his back. He removed his hand for a brief moment and crawled to his knees. Descending, he closed his lips around the head of Chris’ erection, his fingers beginning to play along the sides of his cock, moving lightly over the heated flesh as he sucked delicately on his throbbing manhood.

Chris thrust his hips towards Jesse, begging for him to increase his suction. He swirled his tongue around the head, drawing a sharp gasp from the younger man beneath him. His fingers were in constant movement along his hot flesh.

Jesse let go of Chris’ cock with one hand and gently began nudging his thighs apart before quickly removing his mouth from him to lick his index finger. He engulfed his erection again, sucking hard on the head, one hand stroking his cock around the base. He carefully slid his slick finger back to Chris’ entrance, nudging it inside him.

“Oh God!” Chris groaned loudly, his hips bucking as the pleasure shot through him. He pressed his head back against the pillow; his eyes squeezed shut, panting harshly. Jesse chuckled, the vibration causing Chris’ body to go taut. He tensed for a brief moment, trying to carry it into an orgasm but failed.

Jesse angled his finger and rubbed firmly over the spongy surface of Chris’ prostate, a cry ripping from his lips. Finally he shattered, his body shuttering violently as he came into Jesse’s mouth. He greedily swallowed everything he had to offer, gently sucking his softening shaft.

Withdrawing his finger, Jesse released his cock and looked down at the quivering form of his lover. Chris opened his eyes, instantly glaring at him, smiling softly. “That was amazing…” Jesse grinned, satisfied.

Bending, Jesse placed a kiss on the younger man’s forehead before snuggling next to him, curling his arms around his waist. He laid his head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat.

“What about Billy?” Jesse whispered against the golden locks of his lover. Chris stroked a finger over Jesse’s ribs, hearing him purr softly. “We’ll just have to see what happens…”

Jesse then kissed his cheek before reaching for the covers and draping them over their bodies. “I think we need to sleep…” he twirled a strand of Chris’ hair around his finger and gently tugged. “Why?” Chris murmured, shifting until he was facing Jesse.

“If I know the Kid right then he’s gonna be planning something for tomorrow…” Jesse giggled. “Planning what?” Chris muttered as he buried his face in Jesse’s neck. “Probably a party or something. Would be typical for Sean!”

“I’m not sure I can sleep…” Chris stated, smiling. “Then let’s just lay here and stare at each other…”

However not many minutes later their eyes closed, soft breathing and they fell asleep in one another’s arms.