Title: Accept Your Feelings.
Author: Kristina Q.
Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me, but if they did, I sure as hell wouldn't complain *giggles*
Warning: This fic contains male/male graphic sex.
Distribution: Anywhere you want as long as you ask me.
Couple: Jesse James/Billy Gunn.
Rating: NC-17.

Raw had just ended, and The New Age Outlaws had managed to defend their Tag Team Titles successfully. Billy had gotten the pin while Jesse had kept their opponent outside the Ring. Both men had already showered and packed their bags and was ready to drive back to the hotel.

Jesse had promised to give Billy a ride back to the hotel, and of course he wouldn't want to break his promise, since Billy was after all his partner and his best friend. A ride back to the hotel was the least he could do for him.

It was late and the sky had already turned black, decorated by little glittering stars, burning far away. Jesse and Billy were on their way to Jesse's car in the parking lot, and when they reached it they put their bags in the trunk and both men sat into the car. Jesse behind the wheel and Billy next to him.

Jesse turned the key in the ignition and the vehicle started. It didn't take long time before they were driving on the road to the hotel. Their ride would take around an hour. It was dark and Jesse was beginning to become tired, he kept his eyes on the road concentrating on driving the car. He didn't want to drive off the road.

Suddenly Billy began smiling, but of course Jesse didn't notice, because he was driving the car, but when Billy's smile developed into a giggle, he started wondering what made him giggle.

"What's so funny?" Jesse asked him very curious, "It's just my dirty imagination..." Billy laughed without further hesitation, "What? What were you thinking of?" the curiosity could easily be heard in Jesse voice, "What do you think?" Billy said and smiled while he was looking at him, "Well, I don't know. How would I know?" Jesse asked and gazed at Billy for a brief second and then returned his look to the road, "You, of course," Billy answered with a smirk on his face.

Jesse didn't seem to be very surprised at all, he was actually smiling a little, "Where you having dirty thoughts about me too?" Billy questioned just for fun, and Jesse's smile seemed to widen even more, "You really should smile more often. It makes you look so adorably cute" he said when he saw Jesse smile, "I can't think dirty stuff about you! Not while I'm driving or else we would end up crashing into a tree!" Jesse laughed.

Billy was indeed surprised to hear THAT from his best friend. It seemed that he had more than just friendly feelings for him, but Billy didn't really mind, since he had been secretly in love with him since the first day they had met each other. He had actually been expecting to get thrown out of the car and forced to walk all the way back to the hotel.

"I had earlier... and maybe later..." Jesse said very seriously with a lustful grin smeared across his face. Billy's eyes widened in surprise. That pup was full of secrets he wouldn't even have considered possibilities! It almost made him hard.

"A shame we're driving. I'm in some sort of cuddle mood right now," Billy said while a small sigh escaped his lips, "What the fuck are we talking about? I must have gotten a brain damage the other day from one of those punches I received from Jericho !" Jesse suddenly said very serious and frowned, again concentrating on the road, regretting what he had just said.

"What? Oh, come on! Don't deny it..." Billy said very disappointed, wondering why he was suddenly acting this way, but Jesse didn't say a single word, he just looked at the road and pretended he hadn't heard what Billy had just said.

During the next half hour none of them spoke to each other, and now they had finally gotten to the hotel. He parked the car on the parking lot and stepped out, grabbing his duffel bag from the trunk, still not speaking. Billy shook his head as he stepped out of the car and picked up his own bag.

Without even looking at Billy, Jesse locked the car and started walking towards the hotel, and Billy scurried after him, through the lobby and into one of the elevators. Pulling his credit card-like key out of his pocket, Jesse glanced at it. Room number 334. He pressed the button with the letter '3' on it.

"Seems that we're gonna share a room," Billy said after he noticed the number on Jesse's key, "What do you mean?" Jesse questioned confused, "Thanks for speaking to me again!" Billy grinned, "It's the same number that's on my key," "Oh no..." Jesse murmured to himself and rubbed his temple. Now he had to listen to Billy the entire evening and probably morning too. Thank God, that Jesse had promised to join Sean for breakfast!

The elevator reached the third floor and the metal doors opened. "You are so fucked up!" Billy said to Jesse as he stepped out through the elevator, "What do you mean?" he asked curiously as he followed after him, his eyes narrowing as he waited for an answer, and Billy turned around slowly and glared at Jesse, "You don't know what I mean? You tell me something and then denies it afterwards! If it's how you feel about me, then just give in and tell me the truth... I love you. There! I said it! I love you, and I mean it!" the words came out slow and shaky, while a tear was about to trickle down his cheek, but he forced it back.

Jesse didn't say anything for a moment, trying to understand the words that had just come from Billy, "What exactly is it that you find so fascinating about me?" Billy didn't expect to be asked that question, but Jesse seemed to be serious, so he gave him a serious answer, "I'll tell you what. Everything! Everything... your great personality, your beautiful blue eyes, your sexy voice, your cute smile. That's what it is!" Billy exclaimed, his voice mixed with sorrow and anger, no longer able to hold back the tear in his eye, and it had managed to escape.

Finally finding the door to their hotel room, Billy sighed in relief, and began searching for his credit card-like key in his pockets. Jesse didn't move; he didn't even blink. He was still trying to deal with what Billy had just told him.

He managed to find his key and stuck it into the lock and waited for the light to turn green and then opened the door, turning his head to glance at Jesse, who was still not moving. "Do you wanna come inside or are you gonna be standing out here for the rest the night?"

Jesse let out a small sigh; "Okay, but I'll be leaving first thing tomorrow, when I wake up!" and then he went in through the door, into the hotel room, pushing Billy aside and threw his luggage on the floor next to his bed. At least they had gotten two separate king-sized beds! "Whatever. If that's what you want," Billy said, trying to sound serious, but couldn't prevent an evil grin from appearing on his moist lips.

Sitting on his bed, Billy was carefully watching as Jesse started unpacking his duffel bag, who didn't seem to notice until a few seconds later, "Why are you staring at me?" his tone was angry and scared, "Is it fucking illegal?" Billy giggled, eagerly waiting for Jesse's response; "Yeah it is!" he growled and turned away from Billy's stare.

"You do have feelings for me, right? I'm not talking about friendly feelings. I mean stronger feelings... love perhaps..." Billy continued with a wondering expression on his face.

Glaring at Billy for a brief second, then looked away again, "You don't know what you're talking about," "Oh, yes I think I do!" Billy said while he rose from the bed. Billy was beginning to get on Jesse's nerves and he was really pissed off right now. How could Billy suddenly be so fucking annoying?

"Shut the fuck up, you stupid motherfucker!" Jesse spat out and roughly rubbed his forehead with one hand, clenching the other, to keep himself from punching Billy, "You're afraid of what you feel, aren't you? Oh, yes you are! But you have to accept your feelings or else you will up all alone!" Billy sounded very convincing, and Jesse tried to figure out what he was gonna do now.

For about a minute, both men stood face to face, only staring into each other's eyes. Before Jesse even reached to react, Billy had moved in and stole a quick kiss from his lips. For that very moment, Jesse felt paralyzed. His entire body was trembling.

"Now it's up to you... You can choose to stay or leave; you decide," Billy said and shrugged his shoulder, turning away from Jesse, when a hand suddenly wrapped around his neck and pulled him into a deep kiss, tasting Jesse's sweet lips, he parted his lips and felt Jesse's tongue exploring him, caressing the roof of his mouth, running his hands over Billy's firm chest.

Grabbing his hips, Billy caused Jesse to moan hungrily into him as their bodies grinded against each other's. Then Billy broke the kiss, gasping for breath, still holding Jesse's body tightly to his own, feeling his body shaking with a mixture of arousal and fear.

"I - I want you..." Jesse cautiously whispered as he rested his forehead against Billy's, and the sudden words from Jesse was already making him hard, "You sure you want this?" he questioned him softly. Jesse didn't respond but just nodded and a smile seemed to be appearing on his moist lips.

Billy returned the smile and led him to the bed, slowly pulling off Jesse's shirt and leaned to place butterfly kisses along his neck and collarbone, then pulled his own shirt off just slow enough to make Jesse whimper.

Jesse's eyelids closed as he could feel Billy's fingers unbuttoning his jeans, then sliding them down his legs along with his boxers, running his fingertips over his delicate pale skin, sending shivers down his spine.

"I want you to fuck me..." Jesse suddenly gasped, causing Billy to glare in surprise at him, raising his eyebrows.

"Wait here," Billy breathed as he gazed at Jesse's exposed body, licked the pre-cum away from the tip of Jesse's cock, then scurried into the bathroom. Jesse was unable to think, he was overwhelmed by the pleasure shooting through his trembling body.

A few seconds later, Billy returned, nude just like Jesse, holding a little tube in his hand, and Jesse licked his lips thinking of Billy inside of him.

All his muscles tensed when he felt one of Billy's fingers penetrating him, and he let out a soft whimper, feeling the finger carefully wiggling inside of him, slowly stretching him and he tensed even more and moaned when the finger brushed against his prostate.

Billy removed his finger and squeezed out some of the gel from the tube of lubricant and coated himself with it, nearly bringing himself off because of his own touches.

No longer was Jesse able to control his own lust and he shoved Billy down on the bed and crawled on top of him, positioning himself astride him, and cautiously pushing back down, allowing Billy to enter him.

When Jesse had gotten used to Billy inside of him, he began to move up and down at a slow pace, listening to Billy moaning softly to the rhythm of his own movements.

Billy thrust his hips upwards to meet Jesse, causing him to whimper and clench the sheets, while Billy placed his hands on Jesse's hips, he arched his head back when he could feel Billy reach his prostate, and the sob escaping from Jesse's lips was enough to send Billy over the edge.

Feeling Billy's warmth filling him inside was so astonishing, and Jesse cried out as he came on both of their abdomens.

Jesse rolled onto his back, gasping for air. Billy had almost started breathing normally again, feeling Jesse's drying cum beginning to coolen on his lower abdomen, and he rose from the bed and went into the bathroom to clean himself up.

When he returned, Jesse had buried himself underneath the blankets, and Billy couldn't help but smile. He was so cute. So beautiful. So perfect.

Billy crawled into the bed and wrapped his arms around Jesse waist, causing the younger man to snuggle in his embrace, nuzzling his chest while he let out a sigh and a stray tear trickled down his rosy cheek, and his lips curled upwards.

"I love you," Billy whispered as he kissed the smaller man's forehead, and tightened his grip around his body, toying with his limp fingers. "I love you too..." he murmured as he slowly drifted off to his sleep.

***

It was morning and Jesse was still stunned from his unbelievable moment with Billy. The sunlight had waked him up, as it broke through the curtains. He had already been up for a long time, and had showered, gotten dressed, and was now sitting and watching Billy sleep peacefully.

After a few minutes, which felt like hours, Billy started moving and he opened his sleep-hazed eyes, smiling as he instantly gazed at Jesse, "I thought you said you would leave as soon as you woke up...?" he murmured as he rubbed his eyes.

"Fuck!" Jesse suddenly exclaimed, causing Billy to giggle, "Fuck, I'm gonna be late!" he said and claimed Billy's lips in a harsh kiss before rushing out of the door.

Billy burst out in laughter and shook his head, "God, he's so adorable!"